Good Things to Come

Well, I’ve almost made it; just a day and a half before my surgery. I’m so ready for it! The past two weeks have been challenging, and I’m ready for the next phase.

I only “cheated” one time, but I had my doctor’s permission. After so many protein shakes, they started to make me really nauseous. He said if the shakes get to be too much, then just make a smart decision and have a Lean Cuisine. So, for my birthday dinner, my family came over and we all had Lean Cuisines to eat. Today, two very good friends had a celebration for me complete with sugar-free Jell-O and candles.

I’m supposed to be drinking four protein shakes today, but I’m just so over them. I’ve had one today and suppose I will have to have one more to get through dinner. Tomorrow is only clear liquids, which I am kind of looking forward to after all these gross shakes.

It is very touching how different people have found ways to be so supportive. Since day one, no one has ever said anything negative or unsupportive. I don’t know what I was expecting, but I didn’t expect everyone to be SO nice. In the back of my mind I kept thinking people would think I was just lazy and needed to go on a diet. So far, people have been very understanding and open about sharing their own food issues.

I am looking forward to meeting small goals I don’t think most people would even think of being a problem. The truth is when you are overweight it starts to take over your thinking. For example, I’m always concerned about weight limits. On our honeymoon, Eli and I went parasailing. I remember the sheer panic that washed over me, when we were in the middle of the ocean and the guide started asking everyone their weight. I was surrounded by muscles and bikinis, and I was horrified. I actually whispered it in his ear, instead of saying it out loud. To make matters worse, I had to have a different suit than everyone else. It looked like it was for transporting a whale through the air.

I recently reached a new low, when I had to get a seatbelt extender on our flight to/from the Bahamas in May. Fortunately, I already had this surgery scheduled or I would have been pretty depressed. I felt like it was a sign from God that I was doing the right thing. It was quite comforting to know that probably won’t ever happen again.

Some other things I am looking forward to:
• Being healthy
• My back and legs not hurting as much
• Being able to stand for longer periods of time without my feet killing me
• Crossing my legs
• Not avoiding activities, because I’m scared I’m too big
• Having more than two stores I can buy clothes

I’m sure there are many more, but these are some of the big ones. Change is around the corner, and I’m ready!