Ahhh, the second trimester. It was so good to me. I hope the third trimester greets me just as warmly! This has been some of the most exciting months of my life. I loved every minute of learning about the growth and feeling my SON kick me. We really got to move forward with plans for our baby. We gave him a name and completed his nursery. We decided to name him Silas Lee Alcala. We picked Silas because it is unusual, but not too far out there. Lee is a family name on my side. Both of my dad’s parents had the middle name Lee. My grandfather died before I was born and my grandmother died when I was about 2, so I didn’t know either of them. I’m very much like my dad, so I thought it would be nice to carry on the name of the people who created him.
This trimester also brought a lot of joy. We got to surprise everyone at Christmas with the news we were having a boy, I felt Silas kick for the first time (and a lot after that), and we got news that all his test and ultrasounds are perfectly normal. I even passed the gestational diabetes and anemia tests.
I have still struggled with my weight in my own mind. I’ve gained about 15 lbs all together, which is great according to my doctor, but it has been hard. I’m hungry all the time, so I constantly have to tell myself no. My doctor is really happy with my weight gain, especially since I don’t have my lap-band to rely on right now. It makes me feel good to know that I have changed my eating habits for the better. I do have moments where my cravings take over and I lose control (like eating two cupcakes at once), but those are not very often. We try to walk several miles most days of the week, so I’m still staying active.
Eli and I are closer than ever and really enjoying this time together. I don’t believe babies can make a relationship better, but if you already have a strong connection, then it definitely can bring you closer. Eli has truly been amazing throughout this process. He is supportive, caring and above all, interested in what is going on with me and the baby. He listens to me whine about aches and being hungry. He is patient when I have a mood swing and talks me down when I get a little overwhelmed. He’s reading a book called, Dad’s Pregnant, Too, and I suspect it has given him a few tips as to what to expect from me. I’m truly blessed to have his support as well and all my friends and family. Silas is going to be born into so much love.
Most of my anxiety is trying to figure out how to accomplish all the tasks I need to before his arrival. Lately, I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed by the lack of time I have left. Not only do I have to get stuff in my personal life in order, but I have to get projects at work in order to prepare for four months out of the office. I’ve started interviewing pediatricians and trying to work out the details for his health insurance. We have a lawyer drawing up our long-overdue will, which was surprisingly simple and overwhelming all at once. I have a nice honey-do list together for Eli full of stuff to finish around the house. We’re registered for all the classes we need to take and have our maternity photo shoot scheduled. I have two showers coming up, so that is super exciting. All in all, I think I’m making good progress, but I still feel like time is going by way too fast.
The one item I can’t check off the list, and want to the most, is where Silas is going to go when I go back to work. There are only three daycare centers downtown, and I’m on the waiting list for all of them. The problem is those waiting lists are long and you don’t find out you’re in until a few weeks before you can start. We can’t choose a place close to our home, because it is nearly impossible to make it to this side of town by 6 p.m., even if I leave right at 5. In my line of work, it is really hard to guarantee a departure time right at 5, and it would be super stressful to try and do it every day. I don’t know what I will do if we don’t get in somewhere by the time I need to go back to work in September. We don’t have family or friends that could watch him, and I am extremely uncomfortable with inviting someone I don’t know in my house to be alone with Silas for 10 hours a day. So, we wait.
That pretty much sums up my life for the past few months. Pregnancy has been pretty easy so far. I don’t suspect I will be repeating that in the next few months. I’ve been trying to enjoy this trimester as much as possible, just in case the last three treats me poorly. Pray for me, please.
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